Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you, "declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

Saturday, June 26, 2010

wisdom teeth

Steven had to have his wisdom teeth pulled in May and yes it was stressful, but God had a lesson in it for me. Steven gets very nervouse going to the hospital because he had so many surgeries as a child, so going in for this we knew would be hard. They decided to do it at childrens hospital because there could be complications. So the morning of May 20 we arrive and at first things seem to be going fine. Steven is being so brave, but as we got closer to the surgery he was getting a little nervouse. It didn't help that we had to wait around 2 hours for all the pre-op protocol to be finished. They even gave him valum, but it had almost worn off by the time they were ready for him. Since he was a little uneasy they let us walk beside him down to the operating room. As we are walking he is getting more and more worked up and by the time we are going in he is crying and reaching out for us and begging us not to leave him:( It was so hard to see him like that. Inside the operating room there are about 6 people waiting to do there jobs and Scott and I are sitting on each side of the bed trying to calm him down, I am doing everything I can to assure him I will be there when he wakes up and that it is going to be o.k., but nothing is working. Scott finally grabs his hands and looks at him and says "Steven look at me, look in my eyes", and as soon as Steven looked in his Daddy's eyes he calmed down. It was quite amazing. Even the doctors were amazed, they had never seen anything like that. He took a deep breath and looked around the room and said o.k. I'm ready. It was so sweet, but it took me going half way around the world to Uganda a few weeks later to understand what God was teaching me through that. As I was sharing Christ with the people in Uganda and so out of my comfort zone that I was litterally praying while I was speaking I saw that picture of Steven looking into his Dad's eyes and how all the scary things around him faded away and he had the strength to go ahead with something he didn't understand and was terrified of, and that is what we are supposed to do, keep our focus on our heavenly Daddy and all the scary things around us fade into the background.